Struggling...

I sometimes think I am going crazy...why don't my kids listen to me? Even when I use the mean mommy voice, they just look at me like I'm the child and they can do whatever they want. I dont' understand what I am doing wrong. I just got "making the terrible two's terrific" as well as "The New Birth Order Book". Hopefully these will shed some light on what I am doing wrong. My 8 year old...talks back ALL the time. She rarely has time alone with any parent (Jesse is ALWAYS gone and I'm always dealing with the twins doing something...or the 5 year old encouraging them to do something...) I'm not sure what to do.

On another note, Jesse has an interview/question for him time on Saturday morning. I am stressing...I am so afraid of being one of those families that can't keep a job longer than two years. He loves being a mechanic...he loves driving a tow truck...neither one of those things has a lot of upward mobility...which is fine as long as they are keeping busy and REALLY trying to get more business...the tow company can't get anymore business...and recently I've figured out I am not sure I want to encourage that one (I don't want people to be in accidents, it makes me sad to think I did at one time...probably not with my heart...but with my pocketbook...does that make sense?) Anyway, the interview/whatever you want to call it, sounds so promising. It's a new shop that is going to open up RIGHT by our house, literally within walking distance with the kids. It has true potential...I'm trying not to get my hopes up, I don't want to think something great is going to happen and then nothing happen. I am tired of stressing about a job situation...but we don't see him at all doing this towing thing. AT ALL! He comes home for lunch and immediately gets called out...he hasn't eaten supper with us since he started doing this full time. I thought he would be home during the day when he wasn't on a call...he's not. Boy do I sound like a whiney booger...I am...pathetic. Anyway...this is my story right now...I think I must be pmsing. UGH!

Ok...Saturday at 11am, please say a prayer that we are lead in the direction God wants us to move, not that we want to move...