Life...

We went to a special Christmas Dinner tonight at Church...it's for kids who are incarcerated...I'm not sure of the details, all I know is we ate with one child...he was 14 years old and just as sweet as can be...it's hard to believe he is capable of anything but kindness...He was polite, respectful, etc. He has never known anything but people that use cuss words to converse with him. He hasn't been loved like you would think a child would be loved...makes me think I am not doing things right at home. I wonderf if my kids REALLY know I love them. I don't want to JUST keep them from the life this child has been involved in...I want them to be LOVED and know they are capable of ANYTHING...I want them to achieve greatness with Christ. I don't want them to go to Church because Jesse and I take them...I want them to go because they love the Lord. I don't want them to marry someone because they think they are supposed to get married...I want them to marry because they can't live their lives to the fullest without that special someone. I want to be their educator...not just this tyrant that tells them where to go and what to do and what time to do it...So that is my New Years Resolution a month early...I'm going to work on my life to therefore improve my children's lives. That is me in a nutshell tonight...perplexing...