I've been struggling

My struggle may sound RIDICULOUS to most people...and sometimes I think it is ridiculous...I am struggling with my father. I am struggling because my father is not the husband he should be to my mother. He basically ignores her. He treats her as though she is an obligation he is HAVING to spend time with, when he bothers to show up. Generally, he doesn't show up. He believes work is more important than his wife...and I know this. I know this so well, I am sick of him. I don't want to talk to him, I have to force myself to be kind to him because I really want to share what I think of how he acts to him. My mother...she hates this...but sticks by him. Recently I have been flooded with people talking about a book called "Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers. This is an amazing book. I hadn't thought much about it...I've already read it...until this morning. The third person has mentioned this book and the Book of the Bible it references, Hosea. My sister and I talk...she brings up Hosea when talking about my father...So here is my struggle: I believe God wants me to pay attention to Hosea, to forgive my father, YET AGAIN, and be like my mother...Hosea. UGH! This is so hard for me, I don't understand how you can be the way my father is and still feel good about yourself. I can't understand how I am supposed to forgive him, love him through this and be the daughter I am suppposed to be to my father. Hosea. God can do this. I can't. So my request this morning is prayers for my heart. To feel the love I am supposed to feel for my father, to feel the Hosea run through me...